“Now. I want you to say ‘I know you’re going to whip me and fuck
me and humiliate me, and I want to be your slave’.”
She said it, albeit haltingly. I responded, also in a near-whisper,
“Good girl. Now, down on your knees.” She got […]
She looked worried and said, “I got a letter from the college.
They said that if my final grades were as bad as my midterm grades,
I’d be out on academic suspension.”
I got up and went over to her, my breathing already rapid. I ran
my hand through […]
any advantage to be gotten by continuing to seem offended.
“Okay. Now, if you didn’t come here to apologize, why did you come?”
She looked confused and shy again, and again had trouble starting,
so I said, more gently, “Have you decided to […]
have felt at least some of what I felt. I was always relieved when
I could turn my attention elsewhere. For her part, she never showed
any sign of discomfort, or of being attracted to me; she always seemed
completely cool.
All this was during the day, […]
I can’t say it!” She flushed and looked down again.
I said, “Did you come to apologize?”
Her head came up sharply, an angry look on her face. Her intention
was clearly to rebuke me, but she stopped short when she saw my
[…]
gathering some papers together, so she made a little throat-clearing noise
to get my attention. When I saw her I sat down without saying anything,
and stared at her. She began to get nervous, and finally said, meekly,
“Can I come in?”
“Yes.”
[…]
My feeling of self-satisfaction and power lasted through the next
day and on into the evening. I was, as I have said, pretty sure that
I would never see Shannon again; but I was quite high on my feeling of
accomplishment. I was sure that all who […]
you only one assurance. I would never do anything that would cause you
permanent physical harm.”
I released her and sat down. She made no motion toward the door,
so I said, “You may go. Remember, twenty-four hours.” She picked up
her papers and books […]
this far, I was determined to play out the rest of my fantasy.
My surprising calm had not abandoned me; indeed I felt, if anything,
more calm and in control than before. Standing in front of her I ordered,
“Sit down! You can’t go yet. You might change your mind, and […]
She made no response, so I continued, in a tone as uncompromising-
sounding as I could, in my nervousness, adopt. “I’m only interested
in what I said.” She stayed silent, so I went on. “I’ll give you
twenty-four hours to decide. If you’re not here tomorrow night at
this time, I’ll […]
It took her a moment to realize what I had said. When she did
she was nervous herself; she was wondering whether I was a madman,
and she could see that she had gotten in deeper than she had wanted.
She certainly didn’t want to assent, but she didn’t want to offend me
either; […]
I looked over to make sure that the door was closed. “I can get you
passing grades— probably D’s—in your history and English courses,
and a good grade in mine, and good grades in your summer school classes
as well.”
She was astonished. “How can you do […]
“Hmm. One more thing. Do you live with your parents?”
Many students did; the financial savings were part of the reason they
went to community college.
The question brought forth a look of even greater surprise, but again
she answered. “Yes. […]
knew quite a bit about both. She was failing both courses, but neither
one too badly; it would not take too much to bring her grades up to
passing ones. She apparently had one paper and the final exam left in
each course. I put down the papers and looked at her […]
when she moved. Her face was a standard-issue girl’s face, except that
her nose was a little shorter, and her mouth a little larger, than most.
Her hair was a yellow blonde color, a little thin, and it could have been
cut better. She wore no makeup except around her eyes. […]